Poem: Break Down the Breakdown

As I reflect on my breakdown this morning,

the lessons start to flow, I hadn’t listened to the warnings

So now we have to unweave this anxiety web

With compassion in mind of life’s flows and ebbs.

We can’t always say yes, of course, and sure!

You are only one person, with a limit you can endure

And so remember how that moment felt of despair,

yet how quick it washed away with a deep breath of air

And how this time you nurtured that fear and doubt,

with kindness and gratitude rather than blacking out.

You let in the emotions, thoughts and pain,

Embracing it with vulnerability, we felt it start to reframe

That instead of feeling heavy, weak and down,

You could be proud, resilient, wearing strength as a crown And in those feelings of overwhelm with all going on

it could be put aside, instead of spiralling till dawn

We know now that the pressure only comes from within

So release yourself, toss that “should” to the bin

And when you still struggle to release the vice

Remember, your mind is also a beautiful paradise

One where you can let the work energy go

Let the creative in, and vata energies flow

And yet also a place to feel grounded

Free myself from the stress that gets compounded

I control how I spend my time and thoughts,

Presence back in, and reconnecting the dots

We realize now it’s easy to forgot one thing at a time,

but our brains can’t function always flipping like a dime

And remember it won’t be the last time to stray from the mindful way,

but by taking a zoom out, a deep breathe, I can start again today

With sharing with others how I truly am doing,

they provide support and encouragement for the dreams I’m pursuing

It’s going to take daily small habits for my confidence to build

And yet I know this is the true way to live life fulfilled.